4/12/2009 friday

I have been here form long time now its more then 80 days, but still I feel like just came freshly now.Friends are there to meet some of then are dis appeared and some of them which i dont want to see them again. Time is passing quickly though. but still not getting anything like no satisfaction.waiting for that . anyway I have started my new carriers planning wanted to new start in design but its confusing and not easy but its not impossible though.But my lasyness is still there to kill my future . trying to reduce it , n I will .. !!!
New horizon is still there for everyone but we must have courage, capacity, honesty of efforts then and then we can get it . otherwise cant . I often think to reduce my lasyness and trying as well but still I am at not that stage to fullfill my aim and the thing is that ,, my aim is not clear yet . I am still confuse about life , wedding , carrier , and where to live .
ye but now I come across to some new conclusion about life and future , which is most important for that decision. Me and bhavesh nearly everyday having that chat about same topic. but I think I dont have that much time to think and have to have decision as fast as possible. every one who loves me doing effort for that , but most precious thing is my parents are still neutral for that. they are ready to do whatever I want to do. and that thing is more confusing for me I need someone who can give me proper advice and I cant find anyone who can , and the person who can they dont want to interfear . haha
About carrier I joined AutoCAD calss and then after Pro E . so I am planning that would be beneficial for my better future. started morning walk form last week with Bhavesh - Nandita , going Bor Talav in the early morning 6 for an hour . then I do my routine work and then AutoCAD calss. Last week due to high blood pressure my grand pa admitted to the hospital still he is there . he is fine but loosing his memory and always remembering me and my brother suresh. nearly every second day I visit him. And the day before yesterday aumdev got pain for appendix he is still hospitalise in ahmedabad he may gonna get relive tomorrow he is fine now but not having any food yet from last 3 4 days . nearly every day I chat with meera,dhanjeet, n rana apart form rana n meera all house mates are in India now . Dharmesh got married now yesterday by registry and vaibhav gona get married 8th , and dhanjeets dates are 10- 11 dec , but I may not able to attend anyones marriage . I got exam of mechanical drafting and design of machine element on same date so thats why I cant make it all.
Any way time is passing very fast and we dont have time to think even so do whatever we want to do otherwise we cant do anything if we put that to do in future becouse i have heard form my gurudev that" Future never comes and when it comes - comes as Present ".